DontLetGo19

Insane, outrageous, and looking for a quick fix I'm a misfit, a joke, a bag of dicks I'm a loser, a druggy, always broke anyways We watch crappy tv because there's nothing to do We have sex because we've got nothing to lose We talk about drugs because we love going on trips Looking for a girl who knows how to swing her hips because it will get me off anyways Yeah, we get drunk because it pisses our parents off What a shame we don't come with a warning label We fuck shit up because destruction is fun We drink vodka because it keeps on our feet Oh I love this life Mindless sex, gallons of alcohol, poisonous cigarettes, and any drug you can a

I am a flower child I smell scents of marijuana and oxygen flowing through my lungs The feelings is a complete sanctuary to me This land is full of past strangers and brothers and sisters and lovers The sun is warming my skin and the wind is cooling me off I am not thirsty for the waterfall near has the purest water I am not hungry for the trees are filled with fruit that is sweet like candy I  feel  the cold grass between my fingers and my toes I'm high and am watching the universe move I  hear the mystical and psychedelic music everyone can make I hear the music my lover brings when I lift her spirits and feel her back arise from the great

I am so fucking alone I was born alone, I am living alone, and I will die alone The pain of loneliness fucking agonizing To feel lonely is such a heavy burden and the irony is that all the weight I carry is  only myself I feel a long distress every day It hurts to even breathe because these thoughts are crushing me They're heavier than me and they hold me down They grab me by an ear and bring me down I hate myself and its so awful to only have myself To fall asleep alone and to wake up not knowing even how to get out of bed I don't want to live anymore I just hope that my death is quick because I never asked to be here I never wanted to com

I can't wait to leave To leave and feel the fear become swallowed by reality The reality of leaving For so long, I've been tortured and beaten I wish I could show someone what they've done to me without making me share the blame of why Doctors declare I'm not "Mentally stable" That I can't be left home alone That I can't be trusted with knives That I have to take pills to be happy But I'll never be happy. Not as long as I live here I'm scared of messing up and doing something wrong because then they'll find a reason to hit me To beat me till I can barely talk So I won't have to tell anyone what they do What they've done And what they still

What do you do when you're alone? When you sit in your room and contemplate how to survive without the touch or kind words of someone. What can make all this pain go away? By my art tools, I spot some blades. I sit on my floor and pretend all the blades have names and emotions. I play with them like a child with new toys. Each blade; made for a different sensation of the skin. Each blade I named for a different level of feelings. Bitterness, Melancholy, Anger, Frustration, and Hopelessness To you, they're just blades but to me they are my comfort Its sick, I know it Its wrong, I know it Its morbid, I know it but the feeling is so indisting

I think about death everyday I look back to the day I took my first breath out of my mothers womb Did you know that no pleasure of the Earth can numb the pain of self hatred? Ever since I was born, I looked at the world in such a beautiful way. Always so curious, and always so happy. Now I just don't care. It's just about what gets me through the day. What helps to soothe the blisters my thoughts leave in my soul. I don't know why I'm here but I can't wait to die. I can't wait to feel no pain and finally be at peace. To feel my corpse rot within the Earth would be a typical day. But dying can be different. Death can numb the heart, numb th

You should have killed me when you had the chance. because. you were the king and now you're unconscious. we can't be friends. sugar. You really got me. this is gonna hurt. to hell and back. this means war. sleep with one eye open. till the death of me. know your enemy. We won't back down. with a little help from my friends. you're going down. just the way you are. you deserve nothing and I hope you get less. Darling. tonight the world dies. breathless. and all things will end. across the universe. don't be afraid. I'm not afraid. Everything will be alright. in the end. Everything's an illusion. and I fade out. the memory. on my own.

And Honestly I just feel all alone I've lost all meaning in my life and I have no home My insides are rotting from the inside to the out If I could pull the trigger in my mouth a thousand times I would So that I can kill every demon in my head for good I love how the thorns of the roses hold my heart together And how the pedals dry up the pouring blood; making it all better I love how the lids of my eyes can hide  all pain that arrives I love how ground catches me when I fall to my knees I love how the world is keeping me more dead than alive What a wondrous thing is to have felt the light leave my eyes and the hairs stand on my skin when

Withering and decaying I found myself swimming in a lake of sorrow I was a lonely soul until you came to me Like an Angel, you came to me and healed You made every piece of me new With every smile and laugh you gave to me I fell in love For something so graceful and beautiful It would be impossible to not love you It's as if God himself gave you a piece of him so you may illuminate the world with your captivating beauty You are absolutely astonishing with every action you make I love the way the light of day shines on your pale skin and the way you look at me when you say "I love you too." I love the way you make my heart pound faster whe

How do I breathe? How do I breathe when my demons taunt me? When you say that you're mine but they say those are lies I'm just another pass time for someone whose lost their way to where they truly belong But you belong with me Or so I think But they think differently I love you more than the wind it takes to keep me on my feet But you are that wind For you are all that I love, my only love But I'm sick They make me sick They tell me you'll leave If I don't hold on tightly They tell me you'll leave and be rid of me Their taunting voices are nailed into my every thought of joy It's hard to be here when I am there I am lost into a world wher