Insane, outrageous, and looking for a quick fix
I'm a misfit, a joke, a bag of dicks
I'm a loser, a druggy, always broke anyways
We watch crappy tv because there's nothing to do
We have sex because we've got nothing to lose
We talk about drugs because we love going on trips
Looking for a girl who knows how to swing her hips because it will get me off anyways
Yeah, we get drunk because it pisses our parents off
What a shame we don't come with a warning label
We fuck shit up because destruction is fun
We drink vodka because it keeps on our feet
Oh I love this life
Mindless sex, gallons of alcohol, poisonous cigarettes, and any drug you can a
A land of Lovers, sisters, and brothers by DontLetGo19, literature
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A land of Lovers, sisters, and brothers
I am a flower child
I smell scents of marijuana and oxygen flowing through my lungs
The feelings is a complete sanctuary to me
This land is full of past strangers and brothers and sisters and lovers
The sun is warming my skin and the wind is cooling me off
I am not thirsty for the waterfall near has the purest water
I am not hungry for the trees are filled with fruit that is sweet like candy
I feel the cold grass between my fingers and my toes
I'm high and am watching the universe move
I hear the mystical and psychedelic music everyone can make
I hear the music my lover brings when I lift her spirits and feel her back arise from the great
The thought of being alone by DontLetGo19, literature
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The thought of being alone
I am so fucking alone
I was born alone, I am living alone, and I will die alone
The pain of loneliness fucking agonizing
To feel lonely is such a heavy burden and the irony is that all the weight I carry is only myself
I feel a long distress every day
It hurts to even breathe because these thoughts are crushing me
They're heavier than me and they hold me down
They grab me by an ear and bring me down
I hate myself and its so awful to only have myself
To fall asleep alone and to wake up not knowing even how to get out of bed
I don't want to live anymore
I just hope that my death is quick because I never asked to be here
I never wanted to com
I can't wait to leave
To leave and feel the fear become swallowed by reality
The reality of leaving
For so long, I've been tortured and beaten
I wish I could show someone what they've done to me without making me share the blame of why Doctors declare I'm not "Mentally stable"
That I can't be left home alone
That I can't be trusted with knives
That I have to take pills to be happy
But I'll never be happy.
Not as long as I live here
I'm scared of messing up and doing something wrong because then they'll find a reason to hit me
To beat me till I can barely talk
So I won't have to tell anyone what they do
What they've done
And what they still
What do you do when you're alone?
When you sit in your room and contemplate how to survive without the touch or kind words of someone.
What can make all this pain go away?
By my art tools, I spot some blades.
I sit on my floor and pretend all the blades have names and emotions.
I play with them like a child with new toys.
Each blade; made for a different sensation of the skin.
Each blade I named for a different level of feelings.
Bitterness, Melancholy, Anger, Frustration, and Hopelessness
To you, they're just blades but to me they are my comfort
Its sick, I know it
Its wrong, I know it
Its morbid, I know it
but the feeling is so indisting
I think about death everyday
I look back to the day I took my first breath out of my mothers womb
Did you know that no pleasure of the Earth can numb the pain of self hatred?
Ever since I was born, I looked at the world in such a beautiful way. Always so curious, and always so happy.
Now I just don't care. It's just about what gets me through the day.
What helps to soothe the blisters my thoughts leave in my soul.
I don't know why I'm here but I can't wait to die.
I can't wait to feel no pain and finally
be at peace. To feel my corpse rot within the Earth would be a typical day.
But dying can be different. Death can numb the heart, numb th
You should have killed me when you had the chance. because. you were the king and now you're unconscious.
we can't be friends. sugar.
You really got me. this is gonna hurt. to hell and back.
this means war. sleep with one eye open. till the death of me. know your enemy.
We won't back down. with a little help from my friends. you're going down.
just the way you are. you deserve nothing and I hope you get less.
Darling. tonight the world dies. breathless. and all things will end. across the universe.
don't be afraid. I'm not afraid. Everything will be alright. in the end.
Everything's an illusion. and I fade out. the memory. on my own.
And Honestly I just feel all alone
I've lost all meaning in my life and I have no home
My insides are rotting from the inside to the out
If I could pull the trigger in my mouth a thousand times I would
So that I can kill every demon in my head for good
I love how the thorns of the roses hold my heart together
And how the pedals dry up the pouring blood; making it all better
I love how the lids of my eyes can hide all pain that arrives
I love how ground catches me when I fall to my knees
I love how the world is keeping me more dead than alive
What a wondrous thing is to have felt the light leave my eyes and the hairs stand on my skin when
Withering and decaying
I found myself swimming in a lake of sorrow
I was a lonely soul until you came to me
Like an Angel, you came to me and healed
You made every piece of me new
With every smile and laugh you gave to me
I fell in love
For something so graceful and beautiful
It would be impossible to not love you
It's as if God himself gave you a piece of him so you may illuminate the world with your captivating beauty
You are absolutely astonishing with every action you make
I love the way the light of day shines on your pale skin and the way you look at me when you say "I love you too."
I love the way you make my heart pound faster whe
Episodes of the insane and obsessed by DontLetGo19, literature
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Episodes of the insane and obsessed
How do I breathe?
How do I breathe when my demons taunt me?
When you say that you're mine but they say those are lies
I'm just another pass time for someone whose lost their way to where they truly belong
But you belong with me
Or so I think
But they think differently
I love you more than the wind it takes to keep me on my feet
But you are that wind
For you are all that I love, my only love
But I'm sick
They make me sick
They tell me you'll leave If I don't hold on tightly
They tell me you'll leave and be rid of me
Their taunting voices are nailed into my every thought of joy
It's hard to be here when I am there
I am lost into a world wher